Alright, yeah I admit it, I miss you. There are days where I just sit and wonder if by any chance you still wonder about me. Some days I just feel so empty, so lonely without you there by my side. Do you want to know how I get by? It's the thought, the realization that you made the decision to walk away. You chose for it to end that way and I, I just want so badly to be able to live my life the way you said; the right way, without you. And not for you, but for myself. I want so much to show you that I am strong. That I can achieve whatever, whatever I put my mind to.


I know there are some things you can't change. I know there are some situations where apologies hold no bearings. I know that twists of fate bring people together, and sometimes "everything happens for a reason" can tear them apart. I know that I will never forget you, for you will always have a place in my heart.


I'm slipping, and I don't know what to do about it. You're getting to me so badly and I want so much for you to no longer have the ability to make me feel this way. I can't let you see that this is killing me, I can't let her see that I still feel something, anything for you. I can't give in, I can't let myself fall for you over and over and over again.


I've learned to keep my composure, to play it cool when really it's killing me inside. I've learned to let it go, to let you go. Yet I still care and it, honestly, it sucks. I want to be out there, gone gone and away from you. I want to forget about you, I want to move on but I can't and I do not know why.