all in all

i wish i could run away from this but it's hard because despite what my mind wants, my heart keeps pulling me back and apparently, i can't argue with that because it's going to hurt whether you're here or not.

it's funny how you can be face to face with someone and yet it
feels as though you're on the other side of the world from them.
they haven't actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have.
it's one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: to miss
someone who's literally right there.

You left a huge mark on me. one you'll never imagine. i cant even go to the movie theater without remembering all our memories we shared there together. i cant go to the uni or classes without thinking about the long days we spent just acting goofy together. i mean its gotten so bad that even when i walk into my house, i still remember your face expression when you first came over. we had some good times, and it hurts that you're letting them go. i know i won't, but i'll let you think i don't remember. i'll let you think that i don't know you think about them too. i know you do, i know when you see me, or the next time you come up on my block.. you'll remember, you'll smile and you wont realize it. but i'll never let you know i can tell, you still feel it.

And even if we never talk again, please remember that I'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me.

I know we don't talk much and sometimes we even walk right past each other without saying one word. But there are those times when our eyes meet that deep down, I could almost feel you saying those unspoken words. I want to believe things will be okay, but ....