At one point I just want to slap you so bad for making me feel this way. At another, I just want to run to you and just hug you tight.

I can't help to feel this way.

I had to pretend I hate you in front of everyone.
It hurts.
every time I see you, it takes a lot to not look, to not care & to not bother.


I don't fucking care if the whole world hates me.
I really don't.
I am better off alone anyway.
No surprise.


but You of all people.


I tried to resist this feeling.
I tried to pretend nothing ever happened.


but someone still see the sparkle in my eye.
someone know I didn't entirely let go.



I am going crazy pretending to let go, trying hard to hold on the slightest hope that you'll still come back, letting everyone know how ignorant we are to each other.


If I do, go crazy, one day, will you still care?


I seriously wonder...